The one who will always fall

Yeah…sometimes i wish it was me.

Just want to cry.

Pass all my classes
Dishes
Clean house
Take out trash/bottles and cans
Do yard work
Mind read when my parents need something done
Stress about getting a job
Cook dinner because now both parents work
… and its scary to think it will only get harder when im on my own.

I wanna get lost.. be lost..become lost…just wish i was out in the middle of a lake somewhere… no waves,water calm, and the sun going down. The water consuming me. Feeling weightless as if all gravity dissapeared and breathing becomes easy again. Shaky hands let go of all worries as they skim over smooth water as the ripples carry away every bad thought. Dark cool water numbs my mind. The water washing away the useless. My anxiety comes to rest.. i can breathe my lungs untighten,my mind is blank… im no longer sick.. id give my whole exsistance to be lost.

I coulda been perfect….. but then how boreing would life be? :) u kiss my scars and overlook every little flaw i constantly worrie about. .. i guess i am perfect in your perspective.. and u seem like ur loveing every second :* i must be doing something right!!